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My little story of being an FTM - involving my dysphoria, my relationship struggles, and other such things. Only true things here.

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June 4th, 2013
As long as you're better now, then that is good. Continuing the web comic would be even better though :P
June 3rd, 2013
Missed you!
yay, good to hear!
Ahaha... Ahaha... Ahh... Hello again everyone! It's been a year since I last updated this comic!
In truth I got a new laptop, and without my old bookmarks and unable to use my tablet I slowly forgot all about this comic. Lots of things have happened though! So at least I will have lots more comic updates to make, so that's good?

Thank you so much for your ongoing support everyone, it means so so much to me! I'm okay, I'm sorry for worrying anyone uWu
yeah it would be good to hear that youre OK
Hang in there. Also, you still okay? No updates and we worry.
Player Z
July 1st, 2012
Fe=Iron......and male=man........

You are now IRON MAN! :D
June 17th, 2012
My friend had a similar situation, it's not really a good idea to stay somewhere you're not happy at just because you think this is the only person that will put up with you.

However, I won't pretend to understand what your life is like so I just wish you luck with this guy.
@BadBanana: best comment ever.

I completely agree, Zachary. No two people are alike right? Partners must learn each other, go at their own pace, and when they find how, in rhythm with each other. I'm sure you'll find someone who makes you happy :)
@A Little Personal: Oh, Zachary. (I wanna call you something like 'honey' or 'sweetheart' but it always freaks people out so I'll try not to) You are most certainly NOT ugly, outside or inside. I can tell. When people who have such goodness like yours shining inside it can't help but make their whole selves shine brightly. So, by the laws of MeganTod123, you cannot be ugly! And don't ever settle! You'll find someone, because everybody has someone made for them. If someone truly loves you, they'll do whatever it takes to be with you. There is no such thing as 'putting up with something' in a relationship. Relationships are about love. Keep going, and know that everyone here loves you very much!
Aw, Zachary, you're so cute! And you're welcome! This is a really good comic, especially with such a personal subject. I'm glad I have the pleasure of reading it (and being one of those now 50-something followers) :)
Congratulations Zachary!! I'm so happy for you! Good luck with everything, okay? Don't be afraid to tell them exactly who you are.
I don't know what to say to you without sounding corny, but here I go: You are yourself. It's okay for others to be a little surprised or confused about your life choices, but they are your choices. You shouldn't let other people influence your decisions. And I'm not saying "Don't care about anybodies feelings at all, ever," but I want you to have the courage to be yourself, Zachary. You are your own person, and as such you have a mind of your own to be whoever and whatever you want. If you want to be a boy, then be a boy. Don't let other people weigh you down and make you regret your decisions. Be yourself, okay?

Okay, that last bit was pretty cliche, but at least I tried. :)
I'm a transgender also, and I've only had one boyfriend too. I was too afraid to tell him I wasn't exactly a girl (I'm girl to boy), so I had to act girly around him because I really loved him. Eventually, he suspected something and we began to drift apart because he was worried I didn't like him. We broke up after a year, and I still miss him terribly. I can't give much advise, but I can say, that just be honest with people, if they don't like you for you, they aren't worth the trouble. Also, I will say with firm resolution that I would gladly date you any day!
It's okay. If it makes you feel better. I've met my GF at a con, and we continued talking over the phone, through Facebook, and on another friend's phone through texting. And when we met again for the 2nd con and the second time I've seen her (The first was when I met her), we kissed each other on the cheek, hugged, she grabbed my butt twich, embarassed me in a panel, held hands, and we nearly kissed on the lips (I pulled away cause I was embarassed). And she loves me for who I am and not what I look like or anything (If she did, we wouldn't be together)... So I'm sure there is someone out there for you!
Every relationship moves at its own pace. So long as you communicate with your partner, the rest should come naturally ^^
A Little Explanation
My Boyfriend and I started dating when I was 14, perhaps a little early for dating but whatever. Through various events that maybe I'll tell you one day, things happened - the point is that it went VERY fast. And since I've been in that relationship 3 years now I seem to have missed the part where everyone just worked out how relationships work.
I don't think I'll ever be able to have another partner because they'd feel like they were dating a child XD;
I understand why you feel like that. You have a very low level of confidence to the point where you feel that you will have no other chance at love if you leave him.

Obviously, you're depressed (takes one to know one).

If you found one person that would date you, it's unfathomable that you would not be able to find more!

If someone loves you, they will put up with any of your issues. Love is about personality. Even if you're endlessly attracted to someone, in the end, that is NOT WHAT LOVE IS ABOUT.

To get to a more healthy place, your best option would be to break up with your boyfriend (unless you think you can find a way to make it work--see a relationship counselor or the like). If that's too painful, and if you're not already, you should totally see a therapist--especially someone who specializes in trans people.

Good luck <3
May 13th, 2012
Trust me, I know how you feel. I recently broke up with my fiancé because she didn't treat me as a woman. Always a friggin guy. Bleh. :P Now that I'm single, I feel like I should run back to her cause I feel like I'm so between genders that no one will like me. *hug
May 13th, 2012
sweetie, I'm sure your lovely. You should never settle for less than you deserve.