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Wildflowers

Wildflowers

by GreenKrog
A web comic about love, life, and trying to comes to terms with being transgender. Sometimes dark, sometimes light, and always an attempt at a honest look at transexual life.
Updating weekdays, because my drunk depressed ass can no longer do weekends.
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Wildflowers

A web comic about love, life, and trying to comes to terms with being transgender. Sometimes dark, sometimes light, and always an attempt at a honest look at transexual life.
Updating weekdays, because my drunk depressed ass can no longer do weekends.

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As an incidental side note, this blonde guy who keeps getting pointed at girls and raping them on command like some perverse attack dog from hell must be making his parents *real* proud. I wonder if he plays fetch with the bones of orphans, too.
@mj6373: In this case, you are wrong about 1. If you listened to some of the things she said off-screen when Annie wasn't supposed to hear it, you would see that Bree has taken a certain amount of delight in the overall jerking-around that she has done. It has been fleeting, because she has been hiding things relatively well, except when she wanted to dangle in front of Annie to make her esteem go down.
It might have been too subtle. I've spent a lot more time with her than you have. Well, I hope I have anyways. Everything that has happened with every character has been put in there since the beginning. Only took several years per person for the payoff though - like the cheerleader skirt. The one cheer captain knew, but didn't do anything for a very long time. Bree saw Annie trying to be nice, and thought maybe she could change, but then kept sliding back.

Which is metaphorical to trans people, by the way.
Oh, no, I wasn’t trying to say it would be against Bree’s character to change; the intention of that line was 1) Bree is not the “evil laugh” type, and 2) while she has the ability to do so, your page blurb and the current story direction show she *hasn’t*, which means a reading that she’s dealing with internal conflict about her actions was probably incorrect.

Anyway, thank you for clarifying! This has all been very enlightening.
@mj6373: They have gone dark three times, though she has turned her head to darkness several more times. This was to feign hurt. On the page "recording" she was doing this to show how Annie was all Bree had left after Cindi and Zora left, to trick Annie in to recording the message. On the Audio File page, she turns to darkness to "look at" the dead, but she looks up instead of down like Annie does. This is an indication of control over the dark, instead of descent in to it. That her eyes are half-covered also show that she is somewhat in her own mind with the thought, instead of simply staring as Annie is each time. the on Tandem Timeline (this page) her eyes turn dark while staring at the light in an act of sheer sinister nature. She is looking at the light, but can't look at the person who should be her light. She looks up at the light, but only has darkness in her eyes.

In previous pages, yes, it was an attempt to show her fighting her own nature. Go back through the pages of this year and you can see times when she is actively trying to be better than she knows she will eventually be. This is not necessarily because she is trying, but because the author is trying to make her try. I honestly didn't know where Bree would end up with all of this. You say it goes against Bree's character to change, but that would be wrong - we can all change. Even those who seem to seek evil and pain can and do change, or have moments when they know how wrong it is what they are doing. Same with those who are good - look what Julie did after years of being supportive.

Also, I'm not particularly good at visual storytelling so I am doing the best I can. Sorry.
*was.
Rather than focusing on the surface-level content of this page, I’m just going to look over the last few pages and say... What’s up with Bree’s eyes? They’re going dark occasionally. If I’m to read into that as important to her facial expression, combined with body language, the only interpretations I can think of that make sense are that she’s either fighting with herself about doing this, which doesn’t really fit with the message about Bree’s inability to change, or struggling not to laugh, which just doesn’t fit any of the prior characterization of Bree at all. So I’m mostly just confused. Is there artistic intent to the shadow effect on Bree’s eyes and its timing?
@Rockwarbler: There isn't much to say. I'm not all that complicated - I was emotionally and physically neglected, did not understand the concept of happiness, and couldn't comprehend being trans. Everyone hurt me, so I hurt everyone else - at least then I could connect.

Till I learned that it couldn't work that way, and now I have to live with all the things I've done. Makes for a good bipolar.

Not saying that Bree's behavior can be unlearned, and she can be made better. Some can, some can't. My brother, similar situation, and he has very little comprehension of emotion. His life got much better, but he can't connect to people. He just does what is right because he has learned through others what society counts as right.
@GreenKrog: That explains quite some things, I guess ... What do you think of my concept of obligation towards society to not be hurtful? Is it doable? I can't put myself in that position because I am the contrary of a sociopath, which does mean I need a 'reality check' on this one. (Which also doesn't mean that I never behave hurtful. That's part of life and learning.)
@Rockwarbler: On the side of causing pain.
Yeah, makes sense, I also want my girlfriend to be raped, 'so be it'. Wtf.

I don't think it's fair to compare sociopathy with being trans. Being trans doesn't reach for hurting other people, sociopathy quite does. So in my opinion, a sociopath has the obligation towards society, to try to learn when they behave antisocial and hurtful towards others, and avoid it.
But still, there is this maybe unsolvable dilemma with people who want to be this way, like 'what to do with Alex DeLarge'.

'And the end result is the same - what is happening in Annie's life.' - But on which side?
DewOrSomething
September 20th, 2018
@GreenKrog: if I were the glass half full type, I wouldn't be here talking to you, my dear.
GreenKrog
September 20th, 2018
@DewOrSomething: Don't take me wrong, because I am in no way singling you out, you just happened to exist and use words, so I am responding to you.

Dr Bernt, Dr Bernt, the math teacher, everyone at the hospital, the English teacher, the PTA mom, literally the police at Halloween, the bar manager where Annie sings - all of these people have gone out of their way to help these kids. In some cases, extensively.

I bring this up because it is so easy to forget the good things, and the good people, when things get hard. This is what can give us more hurt than it should - leaving us to think we are alone or prosecuted. It is why I try to make sure people remember that they aren't alone, and that things can (in theory) get better. It is why we should compliment the places we like instead of lambasting the places we hate. A lot easier said than done, I know, but it is one of those things that supposedly help prevent depression.
DewOrSomething
September 20th, 2018
@GreenKrog: I'm not saying it's unrealistic, just that everyone in a position of power to enact change in these kids' lives have failed to do so at every turn. The fact that all this is not only reasonably possible, but fairly familiar is pretty shit but that's life innit.

Sheesh mobile is messing me up today
mj6373
September 20th, 2018
She didn’t strictly get away with killing Dallas, if this is any indication. She appears to have avoided jail time in exchange for preventative measures being applied to try and deal with her mental health issues, which is fairly common for children with mental health issues. Hell, I figure “making sure there’s evidence if she does something like this again” is the entire point of the recording restriction.

I’m not saying she’ll get put away for murder, necessarily, but *something’s* gotta happen, if she is in fact being recorded, this is the easiest open-and-shut case for a potential prosecutor.
GreenKrog
September 20th, 2018
@DewOrSomething: In what way would or could anyone have done anything? Serious question. Look at the actual crimes that have happened and what the reprocussions have been so far - they fall within the realm of probability.

What do you do with someone who urges another to kill themselves? Isolate them? That isn't a long term solution. You medicate the hell out of them, monitor them, and do your best to minimize damage. We didn't even have a court case regarding this type of thing until 2017.
GreenKrog
September 20th, 2018
@mj6373: She SAID she is being recorded full time. But then, she SAYS a lot of things.
When the author says that technically Bree has never lied, that isn't to say she can't or won't. Or that Bree, even if being recorded all the time, actually has it go anywhere. Bond villians tend to have elaborate BS in this way.

Also, she managed to get away with killing Dallas already. What difference do you think this would make in the long run?

Have you watched the news about the use of social media and pressuring people to kill themselves? Look up the case of Michelle Carter. She was charged not with homicide, but not getting the police/rescue to help the person who pressured to kill themselves. Actually having anyone DO anything about it seems improbable.
GreenKrog
September 20th, 2018
@Dykra: Its almost as if I now live in Vancouver.
DewOrSomething
September 20th, 2018
I think if any authorities had been worth their salt in this entire province, there would have been a lot less drama involved in these plots.

Edit: whoops, @mj6373
I saw a cartoon one time where the Queen of the Nile was unscrewing a cap from a bottle of ASPirin. When the cap was removed, the cap uncoiled to become an asp. The Queen then directed the asp, or snake, to bite her on the neck, so as to commit suicide. Sounds like Bree is playing the role of the cap that becomes the asp !
mj6373
September 20th, 2018
... Bree, I know this is sort of your Bond villain reveal moment and all, but you *just* said you’re being recorded full time, and badgering three people to kill themselves, with a success rate ranging from 1-3 no less, (the court would probably have a fight over whether Cindi is part of this total, and Annie’s fate is still up in the air) is super definitely illegal in Canada. And you have history with this sort of thing courtesy of Dallas, so you should *know* that. Speaking of which, said history is not going to do you *any* favors when they’re deciding whether you’re a menace who needs to be removed from society long-term. If nothing else, I’d expect your complete lack of a conscience to give you a clear enough head to remember that and not be a complete idiot.

My patience and tolerance for Bree has worn away completely, as you may have noticed.

... Stay strong, Annie. I know it seems impossible right now, especially with your friends being mad at you, but... dammit, I wish I could support her from here. You can apologize to the guy whose finger you broke, and to Oscar, and I know that won’t fix what happened in either case but it’s the best first step you can take, and Flint is awesome so he’ll be willing to forgive you if given time, and those texts from Wendy were falsified but you probably wouldn’t know that but if you just talk to her about it or go to lunch once she’ll be able to tell you, and... Oh, there’s so much I wish I could do to help from this side, but I am a mere fly on the wall. Annie...
Dykra
September 20th, 2018
Ps not trying to slag off the prairies, I just personally had a hard time there and moving away helped me meet new people and have more resources/acceptance.