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ilikealotofstuff, 11 Feb 2013 10:38 pm

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The fate of this comic and etc dramatic headers

I started this comic when I was around fourteen. I'm twenty now. I'm going to be spewing a load of shit about a comic that has only ever reached a maximum of 30 pages from this point forth, but if you're bothering to read this--I guess someone might be interested.

Despite not having remembered the existence of this for years, I thought about (writing) this pretty hard last night. There are a lot of things I thought were good that embarrasses me to look at or think about now, but with the amount of years I have spent plotting everything out, a lot of things have been planned. I've thought out practically every reason of motivation behind everything a character does, all his rationale, thorough pasts, the details of his subconscious and its justifications--main characters, minor characters, everyone.

I was going to draw something to validate putting this as a comic page, but just don't have the time right now, so, picture explanation: I've actually used Ahren's design in my university project last year because of how close his character had stayed with me. That's what's going on in that picture--it's him in a game. This year, I'm going to be using the designs for his parents for another project--they're barely even featured in this comic, but I've spent so much time planning everyone's minute details that I've actually forgotten where they had originated from, and how scarcely important they were in the context of the source. I'm realizing now that this sounds kind of pathetic; loving something that started off when I drew a random picture over six years ago and decided to attach a half assed plot to it, but it's grown so huge over the years that in a sense, I'm glad I was such a lazy fuck for it to all be properly planned out and refined.

Laziness aside, there was one thing that was always stopping me from progress: the opening. I could never get it down. I'm just pretty shit at intros in general it seems; every time I have inspiration to write something, it's practically always a scene in the middle of something big, and now I've accumulated all these heavy middle scenes that aren't seeing the light of the internet because I just can't get the opening out of the way. I have it all written out, but reading it again--I don't like it. I don't think I really liked it even when I was writing it.

If there will be an update in the future, I don't know whether I'll revamp it again or just continue on. I still really like most of what I've got in 1000+ lines of plans, and I really want to share them someday--actually had a dream about finishing and publishing this once, ha--but unfortunately, what I don't have is the drive. There are too much other things going on that I also really like, that I've also planned the shit out of; my passion's not all here, and I currently don't have time to act on any.

tl;dr I am happy beyond words (look at the amount of text I attempted) that people enjoyed this while it lasted. Big words for 12 pages, but hopefully, it'll continue again--not now, but one day. And it will be awesome.

Also I hope my professor doesn't see this picture.

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AsianIdiot16, 04 Sep 2012 07:12 pm

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His period?! Did the guys give him a sex change or something?!?! IM SO CONFUSED!!!!

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ShadowNya, 31 Jan 2011 07:51 pm

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._. isn't it sad how you cry?

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ilikealotofstuff, 29 Jan 2011 07:46 pm

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This certainly didn't take ten years to go up.

~*Overreaction*~ and everything else will be explained soon.

ShadowNya - Yes ;_;

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Hisui-Hyena, 05 Oct 2010 10:32 pm

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^w^ i love this...please keep it up!