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Midnight-fox18's Art Zone

Dis is my art stash
...Some pictures are old so please excuse those :/

Recent Comments

Silver Eevee
August 14th, 2019
@Angiela: RIN HI I'm gonna keep this shortttt
I'm so PROUD OF YOU keep being cool okay I loev u
Angiela (Guest)
July 22nd, 2019
@Midnight-fox18: Lol I don't have any social media for the book stuff and whatnot, mostly just sticking to word docs and stuff like that XD
sksks aw thanks! Love you too! <33
July 22nd, 2019
Oh my gosh, I’m so happy that you found some great irl friends!! I know that’s not something every person has (I certainly don’t) and the fact that you’ve got a group of people who make you happy and provide that irl support is amazing :3
(you were too immature for your 10000 AoL reboots- I MEAN WHAT I DIDNT SAY ANYTHING-)
Good luck publishing your graphic novel and writing books, that sounds super cool! Honestly, I’d want to read them if they ever come out, and I think a bunch of other people would be interested too :0 do you have any social media or whatever you use to post book info so we can check to see when any of them release? I know there’s YouTube but idk if you use something else for book stuff ^^”
It’s not too intense, I’m okay <3 I’ve been through this whole thing before with Silver and some other friends, I’m getting better at handling it :3
Sure thing, I’d be happy if you ever return, but really, you gotta do what’s best for yourself, so take your time~ (also how are you bad at words in any form DUDE YOURE WRITING A BOOK THATS WORD SKILLS RIGHT THERE-)
I’ll see you around! I’ll continue to follow you and see all your cool arts and characters >:3 I love you Rin, thanks for letting me know what was up, I’m glad to know you’re okay! <33
July 22nd, 2019
@Angiela: Hi Rin!! It’s good to see you! <3
Yeah, I was wondering if the notif system on Refsheet was giving you trouble :’3 Thats why I commented several times, in hopes that if notifs were failing you’d happen to come across one of them X’D

And yeah, I noticed your interest in the Pokémon fandom declining, as you got into stuff like Eddsworld and idk original stories in general. And that’s totally okay!! I’ve had friends become more active in different fandoms, like Marvel, DA Species, etc. It’s perfectly fine, and I’m happy you found something you enjoy! :3

Idk which big fight you’re talking about, (Holly vs Sky or SJ Group vs WiFi) but either way, that’s totally understandable given how sucky fights tend to be X’D

Well actually, leaving the SJ group (or “cutting off”, as you called it) isn’t a big problem. It’s sad, yeah, but we wish you the best and hope you find joy in whatever you do next! That’s kinda how it went for my old friend, SilverNinetales, when she left. :3
The other person who left (whom i think you’re referring to) was a very different case from you and Silver for many reasons. There was a lot of manipulation, talking behind backs, putting people into uncomfortable situations, screaming and making me cry, it was. Horrible. The rabbit hole goes deeper but I gotta protect the privacy of my friends (plus I hate hate hate relieving those memories ;-;)
Leaving a group because you gained interest elsewhere is completely different from what that person did, so no one is going to be upset and come after you <3
Whew that was tough to talk about let’s lighten the mood
(actually ill make this a 2 part comment bc now im paranoid that sj will randomly refresh and ill lose my comment)
Angiela (Guest)
July 22nd, 2019
Hey there Middy! It's been some time, huh? Sorry I didn't see your comments on refsheet sooner, i literally only saw them like yesterday lol. THe notif system there is nonexistent.
Uhh... I guess the main reason I left was to get a soft reboot? I was just... tired, you know? I wasn't that interested in the pkmn fandom anymore either, and it was kinda a stressful part of my life during that time where I had to rethink my priorities and all that stuff. Lots of my energy was going out to lots of different places in my life and I was stressed out and it was taking a toll on my health.
I joined sj because I was lonely. I didn't have... how to say it... a good support of friends? Good friends in general? I wanted to be a part of a community, a place bigger than myself or something like that.
And it was! Y'all were so understanding, and I met some truly AMAZING people here, like you and Holly and so on so forth. But I also kinda felt slightly left out, I guess. This is probably just a me thing, but y'all got so much history between each other. And I wasn't here during That Big Fight too, which, honestly, I'm kind of relieved about. I mean, that was probably the first time I stared wondering if social media was affecting me negatively, perniciously, and all that.
I didn't want to slowly cut myselves off of y'all because someone else did that and it did more harm than good. And honestly, I knew y'all wouldn't miss me too much. I mean, look at y'all now! You guys are still amazing, still doing great art and stuff. It's the same as if I never left. It would probably have been the same if I had never come on.
Now I have a pretty great group of irl friends, and they're amazing!! I love talking to them and being there with them. And the fact is, knowing them is different from know you, Middy, and the rest of the online community. I want to say this in a way that isn't offensive, because that's not what I'm trying to get across. I wanted something real. Hell, I STILL want something real. Because the fact is, there's not a replacement for really being somewhere and talking to someone and doing something.
You guys were great, and y'all helped me learn some cool things. So thank you. But the reason i had to move on was for myself.
I was too young. I came here too young, and looking back, I KNOW for a fact I was too immature in a sense for all this. So I guess this is me stepping back for a while and rethinking myself and trying to understand myself. Like, I have goals. I want to get a graphic novel published! I want to write a book! So yeah.
Uh, I know all this might come across as intense. If you think any of this is blaming you, don't think that. None of this is your fault, any of y'all fault. It's all me.
So, thanks. I might come back some time in the future when I'm ready, but not now. Not yet. Thanks for reaching out, Middy, it really, really means a lot to me. I can't express it in words. I mean I'm bad at words in general tho so yeah lol
i hope this makes sense??? it probs doesn't haha. uh see you around yt and stuff, stay safe, <3

- rin
Gore N the GUYS
March 24th, 2019
I never really understood what was going on then. but I think I kinda understand most of it now.

It's not your fault, you're a really nice person. I hope that you can feel better soon...
March 23rd, 2019
@HollyTheFluffyCat: sure

But maybe I could have done something if I was better?
March 23rd, 2019
I never got the full gist of it..
I’m just wondering if I was that bad of a friend.
@WiispNightmare: alright, I’ll pm you later satisfy sinxe it’s five am right now

you aren’t and shouldn’t have been responsible for his emotions and his actions. he was getting distant but he didn’t accept any help. from me or from the people he cared about. he was in a pretty bad mental state and he just couldn’t take it after a couple fights, and you couldntve really stopped the fights. so yeah, you aren’t at fault
March 23rd, 2019
@HollyTheFluffyCat: I think I need the closure at this point;;;;

But I were a better friend, maybe i could have done something?
I think I was on the edges of the storm.
He got so distant, and then he was just... gone?
I still don't really understand...?
i swear to fucking god mid i dont care what that son of a bitch thinks he's an absolute piece of shit and he didn't deserve somebody like you

literally he was justified in ditching a couple people, but not you
not you

dont feel guilty please
its not your fault he was blind

and please go to therapy
i've been and personally it doesnt work on me (probably because i lied so much hah) but if it works on you, then please do it
you deserve to be happy

i love you
please take care
@WiispNightmare: you weren't
i swear

i can fill you in what i remember if you want in pms
he's just...stupid ig
It never was your fault. You can go on saying you could have done more, should have done more, but it was his own fault. He through it all away. He hurt you, he hurt all your friends on here. You can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped Middy.You did everything you could have done. You never did anything to him, it was all me, and he still took it out on you and that's not fair. It wasn't your fault...
March 22nd, 2019
I never got the full story of the Thing.
I really just want to know if I was that bad of a friend...
March 22nd, 2019
March 22nd, 2019
Best of luck Mid, I hope it gets fixed or at least gets better
March 22nd, 2019
Me and my guilt complex lmaooo
im really really bad when it comes to guilt
I can hang onto it for years. For example, there’s a completely different thing I’ve held against myself since goddamn 2016. The person I hurt back then probably barely remembers it. But I do and i still beat myself up over it.
And whenever something bad happens i might be angry at other person for awhile but then I naturally turn the blame on myself
It’s gotten so bad that it’s to the point where my brain will completely forget what the other person has done to harm me, and it will construct false memories of me hurting them in its place
It’s bad. I’ll probably need to get therapy to fix my guilt problems

As for the drawing itself
7 months since The Thing happened, and my guilt has worsened. The memories of myself being hurt are gradually fading like it always does, leaving nothing but self-hate in its place. I don’t tell anyone about it because I don’t want to bring people down, but I think about it everyday. And it’s always, always my fault.

It all makes me so sad.
What happened back then, and my psychological guilt issues
Sorry if this triggers anyone
December 22nd, 2018
@pixlyJolt: he's dead we don't talk about him anymore
December 22nd, 2018
@Device: du u no da wae to da wai fai
December 21st, 2018
@Sky207: stupid computer