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Hom[m]E

Hom[m]E

by SilentVoize
BL content.
homelesss, hopeless and only sweet 20 years old. That's Akito, having a real troublesome life. Is it even worth trying to find a place called 'home' anymore? He thinks no.
But too bad, some people don't agree with him.

Further Information:
I've been running this project for 3-4 years in german now and finally managed to translate the first part of it to english
This project is not finished yet and will contain many chapters in the end. I am working constantly in my free time on it because it means a lot to me.
You can also support this project by only 1$ on Patreon and get early access.
https://www.patreon.com/VoizeArt


Once Chapter two begins to be uploaded, you may notice a change of 'art quality', since I have re-done chapter 1 a while ago, this means, the pages of chapter two are from 2015. I still hope you will enjoy this story anyway :)


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Hom[m]E

BL content.
homelesss, hopeless and only sweet 20 years old. That's Akito, having a real troublesome life. Is it even worth trying to find a place called 'home' anymore? He thinks no.
But too bad, some people don't agree with him.

Further Information:
I've been running this project for 3-4 years in german now and finally managed to translate the first part of it to english
This project is not finished yet and will contain many chapters in the end. I am working constantly in my free time on it because it means a lot to me.
You can also support this project by only 1$ on Patreon and get early access.
https://www.patreon.com/VoizeArt


Once Chapter two begins to be uploaded, you may notice a change of 'art quality', since I have re-done chapter 1 a while ago, this means, the pages of chapter two are from 2015. I still hope you will enjoy this story anyway :)


Recent Comments

I feel this so much
SilentVoize
December 2nd, 2018
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If you enjoy my content, please support this project for only 1 $ on Patreon!
A appreciate your help very much!
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SilentVoize
November 5th, 2018
@neko13-san: don't worry at all, it's totally fine, you just wanted to explain your comment to me <3
I'm very thankful for your explaination!
neko13-san
November 5th, 2018
@SilentVoize:

Oh, no, I'm still sorry. I know that I personally speak in spurts. that is it can be ambigous and controlling one sentence responses. and overbearing and neurotic twenty paragraphs.

I just felt bad if it was the first, because I know it can come off abrupt. Then out of my own worry for it, I just did the word vomit.

I'm sorry if that came off rude. I'm not the best at communication, and I tend to repeat a lot of what others tell me.

But, it still does not change the fact that I did not want to spoil things for your readers, nor did I want to tell you how to write your story.

I totally get that you don't want to spoil things, and I'm happy that you don't want to spoil things.

I'm just terribly sorry. I'm a terrible communicator. I'm trying to be a little more gentle with my speech, but it's a learning process. Just thank you and again sorry, for this.
SilentVoize
November 4th, 2018
@neko13-san: ah no no no, sorry! haha, I didn't mean to correct you or anything! Been just adding my intentions on the story. Because it deals a lot with complicated human relationships, I just wanted to throw my thoughts on it too into the section.

You're thoughts on that are totally fine, I'm mostly not interacting with comments much because I actually really think it's important that everyone makes up their own mind on it, and even maybe sometimes feeling affected by some dialoges/thoughts of the main characters and theirr behaviour. I want the reader to deal, feel and think about it, instead of just delievering every conclusion in it. So it's totally fine, don't worry.

I just felt like explaining a little why Akito feels so caught in the middle. I probably misunderstood you on your comment. So thanks a lot for explaining it to me!

Anyway, I totally agree on many things you wrote, I'm not going deeper into this now, to not spoil anything, but yeah, thanks a lot for your kind and extensive comment!
Either way, I think Chapter 9 and 10 will reveal a lot of Akito's thoughts and troubles he has to deal with. :)
neko13-san
November 4th, 2018
@SilentVoize:

I apologize for my transgression.

You are correct in saying that perhaps that blaming anyone or himself may not be conducive to his current situation.

However, people, as you've noted feel and one cannot really avoid those situations. Emotions are impulses that happen rather quickly. We can't choose to not feel, but we can choose how we act on them.

As you've stated, "He's still the 5 year old kid that's waiting." I can see that. Most abuse victims can either regress or mature rapidly-at least in terms of their phyiscal dealings-but they still retain a lot of the emotional impulsives (or feelings from when they were younger).

So, while he may put on an air of aloofness, or apathy he's still a kid. I'm not ignoring this, but I don't believe in forcing someone who has been hurt and trapped in their childhood home from when they were five, to move out.

This takes time, and I rather he just slowly work things out. When I brought up the dad, leaving him behind, I was actaully saying it's okay that you are still waiting, don't feel guilty over what you've done, because you are not alone.

I was also hoping that maybe the dad tried to return. That is why I put the at least. I'm also hoping that Akito, tries to gain catharsis.

Maybe-and again this is your story-Akito will return to his mother and try to reach reconciliation. But, I'm worried that with her mental health she may not be around. To which point, it would be normal for Akito to feel guilt, but that he should not try to go at it alone.

Maybe, in another situation she does not accept, or he simply decides never to see her because 1. it's a toxic environment, or 2. some other reason. But, guilt is normal, yet acting on those impulses in a negative way isn't.

Perhaps, Akito has something called, " survivor's guilt" which could be attributed to children who've survived abuse or a horror, and feel like they should not be happy/alive because someone close to them is still surffering or dead.

Again, Akito had to mature very quickly in taking care of his mother and coping with her moments of instability. But, this is only what he allows the world to see. It's inhumane really to think that his 5 year old self no longer exists...and that's another thing to delve into.

But, point being, I made my comment from the mind set that he should not rush to feel/do better and that it's okay if he still feels trapped.

Nevertheless, I was wrong, and I apologize for phrasing this thought in such a short and brazen way.
SilentVoize
November 4th, 2018
@neko13-san: question is, is blaming anyone, including himself, useful at all?
His dad left when he was very young, akito is rather stil longing for his empathy than blaming him. He doesn't understand, it's like he's still the 5 year old kid that's waiting. it's a mental thing.
Not that that's a good thing. I stay out of judging the characters here, everyone who reads it should make their own mind up on it, but : Akito's mind is torn apart constantly into affection and hating everyone who's done hurt to him.
neko13-san
November 4th, 2018
but, you're dad left you behind. At least, that's as far as what the story is telling.
@Gnildryw: thank you!
Gnildryw
October 29th, 2018
This is a beautiful scene, by the way...
Gnildryw
October 27th, 2018
Aaargh, what is he doing!?!
Guest
October 26th, 2018
Will our sweet akito ever learn
SilentVoize
October 24th, 2018
Patreon + Upload information
Hey Guys! It's the end of chapter 8. From now on, daily updates won't go on anymore, simply because we reached the regular upload speed of this story (been updating it weekly (in german) on other websites for years already)
But don't worry, there will be new pages: 2 new pages will be uploaded once a week on sundays!
For earlier updates (3 weeks ahead) you can join my patreon for only 1$ a month. I'd really appreciate your support!
https://www.patreon.com/VoizeArt/overview

Anyway! This new upload speed that I mentioned will remain at least until chapter 10. After chapter 10 the upload speed might drop to 1 page per week, depending on how much time I can spend on this project.
I'm currently working on book 3 (chapters 11 - 15) and almost finished chap 11 :) ! trying the best I can, I'm doing all of this in my freetime after all.

I hope you still enjoy this story and thanks a lot for all your support, sharings and comments!
IronDog
October 24th, 2018
No he didn't XD
deee45
October 23rd, 2018
He'll be back!
IronDog
October 21st, 2018
It's an amused smirk. That phrasing was quite rude.
IronDog
October 21st, 2018
These two make me laugh. I hope he sees him again... He's likely thinking the same thing.
Gnildryw
October 21st, 2018
Ehm, the fourth panel is friggin creepy - what's wrong with his face?! D:
ModeTheToad
October 20th, 2018
We love some casual flirting
IronDog
October 20th, 2018
It's sweet how honest they are now.