'Sometimes it's hard to know what's real when you're not.'
If Zachary Ryans had to be absolutely honest about his feelings, he'd say that he had no idea. Or rather, that he doesn't particularly feel anything.
Little does be know that he's feeling nothing at all.
He can't feel pity, joy, sadness, anger... rather, it's just a large, gaping hole that is growing slowly but steadily, before it consumes him whole.
The fact that suddenly he's the target of over a thousand people doesn't help at all.
And neither does the fact that Zachary was never supposed to have existed.

(bl, shotacon and angst)

rumorized