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Re: Let's Vent

Postby Seven Rain » November 13th, 2017, 1:16 pm

I don't fucking need this today brain, fuck you. Fuck everything.
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Seeing stories and videos of cats and kittens found almost frozen solid in the snow and being saved. It instantly reminded me of the cat I saw dead in the winter a year or two ago and now I not only get to have that horrible memory but constant guilt over the fact that I now know there could've been a chance to save it. I fucking hate this planet. I hate thinking about innocent people and creatures suffering, it's constantly weighing on me, even thinking about potential suffering I have no reason to think about. It's all a reminder of the many reasons it's impossible for me to even take religion into consideration again.
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby mitchellbravo » November 15th, 2017, 7:01 am

I'm, like, entirely beat. Every night this week I've gotten to bed just a smidgeling too late and had exhausting dreams about work. Every day I've come home and not been able to get anything done once I come through the house door. the only way to accomplish anything is by going to the local library right after work and doing things there, which I may have to do again today hwoever badly I don't want to.
I foolishly thought after I handed in my huge project last week that that would be the end of the overwhelmedness, but instead I've just had a more diverse array of tasks come up that need taking care of.
The sun setting early as it does doesn't help, because it just makes me want to go to bed, so the window of time to possibly do anything is even more diminished.
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby Oly-RRR » November 15th, 2017, 6:07 pm

mitchellbravo wrote:I'm, like, entirely beat.

Hugs, just hugs. But seriously, autumns are tough, don't be too hard on yourself.

I have a similar thing, each day I think "ooh today I'll do more than my bare minimum" and then it just never happens for a variety of reasons. BUT. It doesn't mean it'll always be like that.
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby mitchellbravo » November 15th, 2017, 8:04 pm

Oly-RRR wrote:
mitchellbravo wrote:I'm, like, entirely beat.

Hugs, just hugs. But seriously, autumns are tough, don't be too hard on yourself.

I have a similar thing, each day I think "ooh today I'll do more than my bare minimum" and then it just never happens for a variety of reasons. BUT. It doesn't mean it'll always be like that.

So happy to see you posting!!!! <3 <3 <3 And thanks, I needed this advice. Too many things are coming up and it feels like obligation whack-a-mole. The minute I think I'm getting a little ahead and can maybe rest a bit, I realize I totally forgot some other tedious, time consuming task. :roll: :roll: :(
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby Seven Rain » December 4th, 2017, 1:25 am

Earlier while drawing my thumb started to twitch uncontrollably and sporadically. It wasn't violent or constant, but it's noticeable and frequent enough to fuck with my drawing.
I decided to try and take a break from using my right hand for the rest of the day, opting to watch stuff or go places instead of drawing or playing games, only rarely checking the internet for a couple minutes, but it's still happening. Even when I'm not doing anything with my hand, my thumb twitches randomly.

It sounds minor but it's really hindering my ability to get shit done, and I hate that because I've been falling back into bad procrastination habits as it is. If this isn't gone by tomorrow I'm gonna get really worried. I feel like this has happened to me in the past but I don't remember it happening all day or anything. I really don't want to go to the doctor for this. Ugh.
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby mitchellbravo » December 5th, 2017, 7:15 am

I'm only in school for a handful more days and really wish I could just enjoy it and appreciate everything that I'm going to miss once I leave but I'm just so goddamn tired and feel so burned out, I need like multiple consecutive days off where I don't have to go anywhere and I haven't had that and won't have it until after things have wrapped up. I feel like I'm not putting my best effort into stuff I have to hand in to my class and I hate how exhausted I feel when I look at the calendar and see, yet again, that it's only Tuesday...
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby UrbanMysticDee » December 5th, 2017, 3:58 pm

mitchellbravo wrote:I'm only in school for a handful more days and really wish I could just enjoy it and appreciate everything that I'm going to miss once I leave but I'm just so goddamn tired and feel so burned out, I need like multiple consecutive days off where I don't have to go anywhere and I haven't had that and won't have it until after things have wrapped up. I feel like I'm not putting my best effort into stuff I have to hand in to my class and I hate how exhausted I feel when I look at the calendar and see, yet again, that it's only Tuesday...

The only nightmares I ever have are being in school. I'm old enough, I don't want to still be in school. I usually wind up killing people in those dreams.

Unfortunately it looks like those dreams were prophetic, because it looks like I'll probably go back to school to study some sort of computer shit to escape retail. I'm just so tired from working six days a week that I haven't even looked at what school or what program or what classes. I can't wait for Christmas to be over so my hours get cut. I'll miss the money, but my body needs a break.
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby Soft Dorito » December 16th, 2017, 10:26 pm

Today is the first day I haven't been sick as hell this week, and now everyone else I know is sick.

Shit I got the cabin fever now. Blech.
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby Oly-RRR » December 19th, 2017, 5:53 pm

The cold water pipe is shut off all day long, I didn't get to shower, this is driving me UP THE WALL. :|
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby tentacletomato » December 19th, 2017, 6:00 pm

My upper back/shoulders have been KILLING me. I've even resorted to yoga to try and relieve some of the pain, and I can't stand yoga. Does anyone else get this problem? I'm not sure what to do at this point, maybe I should shell out some cash to one of those massage places. It's a normal issue for me, I'm not sure what it is I'm doing to pack so much tension up there. :|
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby Famimatsu » December 19th, 2017, 7:22 pm

Lately everything I've been doing feels pointless. Art, comics, streaming, self care, my own job, I feel like staying in bed asleep is the only thing I should do anymore. It's a hollow kind of depression, like in that nothing that I do will ever be good enough. Ever since becoming estranged from my family, I feel the holiday season just wrecks me twice as bad and I can't tell anyone about it. :c
I'm so ready for it to all be over.
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby ossutrich » December 25th, 2017, 7:58 pm

My arm suddenly started to hurt after drawing all day for a couple of days straight. I've had this before, but I never saw a doctor for it. It healed then when I stopped drawing for a while and I am afraid that it might be RSI.
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby mitchellbravo » December 27th, 2017, 8:07 pm

I'm getting things done and have had plenty of time to rest, but the past few days I have had this dreadful existential why-bother-with-anything-the-worl-will-end-in-months feeling. I've been bummed out before but never this targeted sense of, like, idk what even to call it. It's not even like the panicky anxiety attacks I've had in the past just like this awful sense almost like a premonition, just a bad feeling that looms. Feels gross
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby sentiashinou » December 28th, 2017, 3:47 pm

I took a gamble and didn't shovel my driveway last time it snowed "just a little". Then it stayed super cold so nothing could melt and now there's TWO layers of snow to shovel. I brought this upon myself ;__;
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby Soft Dorito » December 28th, 2017, 3:56 pm

I got sick again. Please, stop.
I'm trying. :)
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