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Re: Let's Vent

Postby Fukairi » January 3rd, 2017, 11:12 am

I cleaned my bathroom after 3 years of crippling depression of not cleaning a single thing ever and boy it was traumatizing
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby Chris chris » January 3rd, 2017, 4:18 pm

Pregnancy.............. :evil:

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I fucking can not believe that every doctor I've talked to these last few weeks has failed to tell me that I have pre-eclampsia. I understand that because I went with Texas Tech residency that I'm not going to see the same doctor, but I've asked at the last few visits what the results were on my tests for it. Not one of them told me "You have a mild to moderate form of pre-eclampsia, so we're going to start monitoring you closer now." I got a fucking call from the ultrasound techs that I need to see them twice a week until I give birth. I found out from calling the nurse if there was cause for some concern. Fucking. Fuck. Get yours hit together. Answer my god damn questions. Spend more than 20 minutes with me before rushing me out the fucking door.
The only doctors who have been straight and honest with me have been my heart and specialist.


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Re: Let's Vent

Postby Arison » January 4th, 2017, 9:30 am

Last week my boyfriend of four years broke up with me. Apparently, he had been unhappy for months. We had arguments about money really. I need a "Big Girl Job" as he put it. It seems me working on my artwork and working as a teacher wasn't cutting it. Him being unhappy for months lead to him just not talking to me anymore and putting distant between us. He is moving out of the apartment and I'm going to be left behind in it. I need to find another job or something that pays money because I can't afford this place on my own with my current job.

I've applied for food stamps. Put my application into several places. Denied by one. I am waiting to get a call from two others that my friends work at. They will be full time with benefits. I have my fingers crossed so hard I may have ruptured some arteries. Right now I just can't seem to think straight and focus. I'm working on my convention stuff. I have a con this weekend. But I need to vent. I feel like I'm going to break down and cry again. I've been crying on and off for days now. It hasn't been a fun ride.
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby Glueckskeks » January 4th, 2017, 10:19 am

Note to self: don't tell a friend they can bring some people along if that friend is friends with people you can't stand
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby Chris chris » January 5th, 2017, 6:36 am

I said this in the optimistic thread but I'm also saying it here too.

We're having a baby on friday.

3 weeks early.

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Re: Let's Vent

Postby Fukairi » January 5th, 2017, 8:15 am

Chris chris wrote:I said this in the optimistic thread but I'm also saying it here too.

We're having a baby on friday.

3 weeks early.

:shock:


I hope everything goes well with them! My twin brother was born around 3 weeks early (we're fraternal twins, he was fertilized after me :p) and it caused him to be tiiiiiiny until his puberty and then he suddenly shot up to be taller than me :D but I hope there are no issues. Good luck!
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby mitchellbravo » January 5th, 2017, 12:31 pm

Taking stock of my finances to try to figure out the year. Estimated the amount I'll have to pay in bills (crossing fingers my new insurance company doesn't also "leave the state due to marketplace instability" and make me have to spend even more on that), estimated the amount I might reasonably expect to make when subbing (taking into account that I may only be able to work 5 days each month while my observations are going on, and hopefully can get at least 10 days in while not observing), added what I have in my account right now, and then subtracted the debt from the profit. It's going to be a really close call this year. -_-

I'm not completely done with my financial inventory (since I need to count up my cash) but ugh, I just feel so miserable and stressed. I know my folks are really good about helping me out and everything but I hate having to still rely on them when a lot of people I know are financially independent by now.
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby phoenixgem » January 6th, 2017, 4:53 pm

Just made the uncomfortable realization that I'm not really moving house, it's more like I'm just being moved . I always knew that and the process has been happening for months but I guess it just "clicked" in my head and now I feeling the emotions that I said I wouldn't feel cause hey I shouldn't even be living in my childhood home right? Should have already flown the nest in the half year I've been back haha....
I'm just used to big changes like this leading to something new, something better, or at least the potential for something better, but right now there's nothing, can't see a bright-side except "it could have been wore" and that's not really a bright-side. I'm just more uncomfortable and isolated than i was already.
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby mitchellbravo » January 6th, 2017, 5:36 pm

I should be in exceptionally high spirits but just feel like something major is missing :(
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby Fukairi » January 6th, 2017, 6:41 pm

mitchellbravo wrote:I should be in exceptionally high spirits but just feel like something major is missing :(


If this happens often with you, have you considered seeing a doctor? I used to feel empty all the time, but turns out it was an anxiety disorder & paranoid whatever character (like it was developed into my nature)

Though if it's just an occasional thing, I feel you bro, it sucks.




I need to go get my mail. I haven't gotten them in two months now because I'm scared of bills I can't pay. Which is the most counterproductive way of dealing with bills but what can you do.
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby Oly-RRR » January 6th, 2017, 7:07 pm

Welp, my cold is back so I'm not getting much done again. :| I guess I should be happy it's not bad enough to spend all day in bed but it's frustrating that I'm sort of falley-apartey and can't sit and draw for hours. Also it's BRASS MONKEYS outside.

mitchellbravo wrote:I should be in exceptionally high spirits but just feel like something major is missing :(

:( :( :( It'll get better tomorrow - or at least eventually.

Fukairi wrote:I cleaned my bathroom after 3 years of crippling depression of not cleaning a single thing ever and boy it was traumatizing

My whole family (myself included) practices this sort of thing so I can relate... But hey, on the upside now you have a clean bathroom?

phoenixgem wrote:Just made the uncomfortable realization that I'm not really moving house, it's more like I'm just being moved . I always knew that and the process has been happening for months but I guess it just "clicked" in my head and now I feeling the emotions that I said I wouldn't feel cause hey I shouldn't even be living in my childhood home right? Should have already flown the nest in the half year I've been back haha....
I'm just used to big changes like this leading to something new, something better, or at least the potential for something better, but right now there's nothing, can't see a bright-side except "it could have been wore" and that's not really a bright-side. I'm just more uncomfortable and isolated than i was already.

This sucks, but you never know what a change might lead to... And different people have different circumstances, so please don't guilt-trip yourself over not moving out?
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby mitchellbravo » January 6th, 2017, 7:26 pm

Fukairi wrote:
mitchellbravo wrote:I should be in exceptionally high spirits but just feel like something major is missing :(


If this happens often with you, have you considered seeing a doctor? I used to feel empty all the time, but turns out it was an anxiety disorder & paranoid whatever character (like it was developed into my nature)

Though if it's just an occasional thing, I feel you bro, it sucks.




I need to go get my mail. I haven't gotten them in two months now because I'm scared of bills I can't pay. Which is the most counterproductive way of dealing with bills but what can you do.

I've been, because it used to happen WAY more often and got to a point where I was pretty much broken-down-car-status level of unable to do anything. In general I'm doing a lot better these days- like sometimes suspiciously well :lol: but I have a few stressors at play that have stirred up some negativity again. I'll be fine tomorrow, and in fact am already feeling much better now than I was.... just keep teling myself I'm overthinking small things (I just had one of those days where good things happen but I feel like I messed up something, though I know that part's all just mental). But I appreciate it :)

And yeah, feeling you on the bills, too. I'm not yet at the "can't pay" level but the damn things just can never seem to stay paid....
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby Glueckskeks » January 11th, 2017, 10:29 am

Feeling kind of bad today because I didn't manage to visit my Grandma since Christmas and I'm leaving tomorrow. Her home currently has a flu outbreak going on, so they discourage visitors. I could theoretically ignore it and just go anyway, but it's getting a bit late and it's not really a good idea in case I pick up a couple germs from public transport and carry those in as well. I'm resolved to write to her and call her often and she'll probably be happier about that than if I show up at her doorstep now. But it sucks that I won't be able to see her for around half a year from now
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby NickRowler » January 13th, 2017, 12:55 am

Constantly fretting about having no social life (and the fact that I'm still single)

Attempting to meet people over the internet but I'm having trouble finding anyone I can click with

I'm awful at making new friendship and it is just making me hate myself

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And it is not like I can just "go talk to a therapist"...I can't afford that
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Re: Let's Vent

Postby Karlijn » January 14th, 2017, 3:29 pm

Not sure how I'm going to survive next week, I handle stress poorly and there's both an exam and an important paper I have to hand in planned. Besides that I constantly worry my friends are getting bored of me. I wish I knew how to talk to people. At I have less trouble sleeping, I hope those problems won't come back because of the stress.
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