Ooookay, so here's the newest topic where the almost 20-year old Molly lists something stupid as a problem but still kindly asks for help for being too cowardly to talk to anyone in person:
So...my school just got its graphic art design classes, and we have these awesome (giant) new Macs, but the scanner doesn't work, the tablets won't be around (and they won't let me use mine as an "unfair advantage"...as if I know how to use it all that well haha) til next semester OR the one after, and we can only do so much at a time because we only have the two classes a week plus a lab. No one but the teacher has a key (instead of the code lock the painting/printing studios have), so we have crappy deadlines, too. Basically my professor described it as graphic art in the ghetto (at a school where tuition is around $22,000 a semester).
I'd be able to transfer at the beginning of my third year (after this semester) if only for a few issues:
1. Some of the schools I've looked at are far away, and I'm worried about if (and when) I might slip into that bit of depression I have a habit of finding myself in.
2. My family basically has no money for me to do this. I could transfer to a few schools with smaller classes and less tuition money, but the ones that I could go to that are close to home would make up for the tuition with the amount of supplies I'd need for class, transfer fees, and no one could give me a ride like I can get now (which I now need thanks to cars dropping like flies in my family). Scholarships would help, but since my second semester, I've been trying for some and gotten none, spare another $1000 at my current school. Any school away from home is a problem since they are...away from home. I'd have little means to support myself, have no car, and am a little anxious when all alone.
3. I have trouble meeting people. Like, a LOT of trouble. I spent my first half of my first semester in college without many people to talk to and the second semester with two friends (though we're still friends, and I love them dearly). The friends and my boyfriend that I met at this school make me so happy and put up with me when I get depressed, and I'd hate to be distant from them. I also have NO self-confidence or anything of the sort, so my friends push me into doing more than half the things that get me into the real world (trying out for choir, trying out for solo auditions, putting any of my art/any form of my voice on the internet, asking out my bf, etc).
4. My school is considered to be a pretty nice one, but not so much for art. Still, even with an art degree, a lot of people apparently show it some respect (at least as told to me by a couple of girls who graduated from the school of arts two years ago).
On the flip side:
1. I might actually learn something art related that doesn't feel like a high school review (graphic art aside).
2. There might be decent supplies for graphic art, and I could get into the classes easier (it was a headache getting the schedule in order) with a way to work on our projects.
3. I could maybe try living on my own. It might not be as bad as I think it'd be. And I might end up somewhere new and meet people there.
So...I don't know what to do, or if I shouldn't do anything at all and just wait to see if my school picks up the pace on these classes. Money is the problem with no real guaranteed solution (though that's even without transferring), and I'm socially....retarded, really (okay, so two problems with no solution).