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Caaan you feel the gay tonight?
@G.H.S.T: Okay, just making sure! You never know what goes down behind closed doors, you know? Either way, I do feel like Louis made the right call as for now, as that would probably fuel the argument even more. And yeah, he was quite ballsy to say the partial truth.
@Truefan108: Well, based off of Louis's father's irrational behavior, I'd imagine he'd even hit his son during his drunk bouts. Sometimes it's best to keep quiet unless you're far away enough where you're not under threat. I hope Louis can some day amend their relationship, but I do have my doubts.
Oh man, I feel him right now. Everyone who has a bad relationship with their parent always braves up for a split second before going back to lying again. Some call it cowardly, but it keeps you alive, you know? And especially since his father was a drunk, I'd imagine he even hit Louis. Lying is sometimes the best option, sadly, especially with an emotionally unstable person.
Well, people always hate most in others what they hate about themselves. That's why every homophobic politician ends up in a gay scandal. They're just closeted assholes who can't seem to open their eyes.
@SoulRaider116: Or...maybe I just made an error since it was late at night. People tend to make mistakes. Shame on me.

Yes, good day, madam. Hope you one day learn to chill out and not think that everyone is out to get you and slowly acclimate yourself to triggering situations to help yourself, because obviously therapy and meds aren't working for you. Just because you have a pretty degree doesn't mean you're an expert. There are crappy doctors out there too.

The world isn't out to get you, I promise, but at the same time, not everything's about you. Trust me, most of the time I bet you are just thinking people are out to get you due to your panic attacks anyways (it happens to the best of us). But trust me, 99% of the time, people aren't. It's mindfucking, but trust me, things WILL get better. You just have to try and take small steps and leave each day as it comes. If you are feeling suicidal, please get help! Trust me, I'm sure you just had bad therapists!

Call (1800-273-8255) if you live in the US! Panic attacks suck, but they are never worth dying over, even if they are due to horrible phobias you can't escape from! Trust me, I have BEEN there. You need help, and you will find it one day!
@SoulRaider116: How am I being ignorant...? You have an irrational fear of trains and loud sounds in general. My autistic brother is also afraid of loud sounds, but not to that amount. It's common in autistic people in general, who develop irrational fears over many things because so many things go through their heads at once.

I hate to say this, but that is a phobia even if you have an all new mental disorder (which I doubt you do and you have something that just makes you very anxious). You didn't get hit by a train, so you don't have PTSD (which also leads to phobias of whatever triggers you). You're afraid of loud sounds and trains in general.

The best way to cope is slowly exposing yourself, like through films. A train won't hurt you, even in real life. But try muting a movie like Polar Express and watch it.

And yes, real phobias make you panic. There is a huge difference between a mild and rational fear of spiders and bees, which are venomous, to you panicking over a train to the point where you're a threat to others and yourself. THAT is a phobia.

Trust me, I do the same due to my fear of shots and getting my blood drawn. My brother panics when in a tall-roofed building. Seriously, there's no grand unique diagnoses for you. Maybe you have an anxiety disorder which may worsen the phobia, but it's still a phobia. Sorry for my "ignorance", but dealing with people with all kinds of mental disorders all of my life, you clearly don't seem to have psychosis or anything like that. You don't need a special diagnoses to be special, and mental disorders should not be used to be a part of your identity. Labeling yourself through mental disorders only cripples you until you're nothing more than a husk. Trust me. The best thing for you to do is seek help, and not expect miracles that occur right away. You need to be slowly exposed to whatever frightens you. That's all.
@SoulRaider116: Generalized anxiety disorder doesn't mean you have phobias. And that doesn't sound like GAD at all. My autistic brother has odd phobias, too, and that could possibly be why you're so terrified and meds don't work. But, I am no doctor. Get yourself diagnosed by multiple doctors. Depression and GAD are the laziest diagnosis out there. Trust me, I was diagnosed with both before we properly diagnosed it with PTSD.

Regardless, the term triggered is mainly about PTSD because people with PTSD actually get dangerous if they cannot control their panic attacks soon enough, which is also why they are used for emotional radicals that cannot control their tempers. And, most people associate "triggered" with both groups because those are the most common groups to have.

Yeah, therapy and meds don't work for me either. I cope with my imagination, as I frequently play fantasy games like the Elder Scrolls series. Find your happy place, and dream away during a panic attack. You'll look shell shocked, but it's better than panicking outwardly and having people going over to you. If complete strangers are going over to you, tell them to go away as politely as you can. They aren't your parents.

What you're going through is called a phobia, which could be caused by many things and I don't recommend letting pillpushers solve your problems for you. Slowly introduce yourself to things. That's what we do with my autistic brother, and he's now okay with feeding mealworms to our pet hedgehog even though he was terrified of bugs once before. If he can do it, so can you. Don't give into your fears!
@SoulRaider116: Having a panic attack, and having a panic attack due to something triggering you are two different things. I do fully understand where you are coming from and I sympathize with you, but to be triggered, you have to act in an extreme way with a clear cause. Yes, your panic attacks do matter and are very effective in hurting you, but that's not what "triggered" is.

I have PTSD, and to be triggered is to be set off by a clear, well, triggering, event, like fireworks, or small reminders of that event or even events that lead to you to get PTSD. Words, unfortunately, do not have strict meanings, and triggered can and does also mean that the person acts outrageously due to offense, and not just because they have PTSD.

Now again, I am not at all saying that your panic attacks aren't valid. I am just saying the word triggered isn't to be used in that example, as you do not have specific triggers that cause the event, and not just the effect of piling on stressors. The reason why radicals get the term slapped on them is because they are triggered, and someone says something slightly left or right of their beliefs and they go off on you. THAT is an extreme way of reacting to a clear trigger, and thus is being triggered.

With people that have PTSD or extremist views (not the same thing, but the word triggered is used in those cases, JUST MAKING THAT CLEAR), emotional triggers can also be a thing, but they also have a clear trigger, such as a flashback (and most flashbacks I get I cannot see).
@gamerkatie: A ton of people love to get offended for others, especially over the word "triggered" because it's somehow "offensive" to them because some people have PTSD, but people who actually have PTSD are almost never offended by the term.
@Metric_muse: I'm not...it was more of a "joke" towards those who would get offended, because I felt there would be at least one person who would be. There always is.
@gamerkatie: SOO OFFENSIVE WORD CHOICE NOT LIKE I USE IT AND HAVE PTSD AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
@violet-san: Nope! Mastiffs mainly suffer from infections if you don't clean their wrinkles, and have the standard joint problems larger breeds get. But, since she is an award-winning dog, chances are she is clear of any genetic diseases, which is the standard for breeding.
Red flag!
Seriously though, this is a really interesting take on a clearly abusive situation. Really interested to see what happens next!
Yeah, I wouldn't want someone to make out with me either after attempting to slit my cheek!
@YaoiGirl09: Welp, see? Everyone's just being confused over the pronoun game. For shame! XD
@M-24: OHHHHHH. Yeah, nope. XD

It's not even like we've witnessed Axel acting like a douche yet! Sure, he's a tad bit touchy, but it's a stressful situation, so everyone's going to act like that. Why the hate @YaoiGirl09 ?
@M-24: It's an apocalypse. Ever watched/played/read the Walking Dead? Yeah. People die. This dick deserves to die like Carver.
Evilsnail11
March 10th, 2018
Caaaan you feeeel the gay tonight?
@SpaceWitch: Luckily for you, everyone appears to agree on your points. It's difficult to come to terms with your sexuality, and Howie is (understandably) being a hypocrite. We all make mistakes, and we all need time to learn about ourselves.