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claredin
Okay, a little history about me. Although I'm into yoga and Aikido and other spiritual healing arts, I'm still a geek at heart and enjoy fun things like wacky comics and movies. I'm good at a lot of different things, perhaps never great at any one, but I put my heart into everything I do. At one time, I wanted to be an artist, but my parents forbade it and so my artistic ability was never fully realized, so I live vicariously through other artists enjoying the wonderful work they put out. I think Smack Jeeves is one of the single greatest sites on the Internet. I hope everyone here can make a decent living doing what they love most.
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I have a confession. I stopped reading for a few weeks after I reached this year's episodes. I did that because I didn't want my binge reading to end... and now it has! :( I hope to read more soon. This is truly a great story.
I've never heard of BPD until a week ago. I reviewed all the symptoms and I would say that they pretty much described me some seven years ago. I know that I can't give myself such a diagnosis, but it sure sounds like it was me. How I got out of it was hitting rock bottom and building myself up again very slowly.

Excerpt from google:
"People may experience:
Behavioral: antisocial behavior, compulsive behavior, hostility, impulsivity, irritability, self-destructive behavior, self-harm, social isolation, or lack of restraint
Mood: anger, anxiety, general discontent, guilt, loneliness, mood swings, or sadness
Psychological: depression, distorted self-image, grandiosity, or narcissism
Also common: risky behavior or thoughts of suicide"
claredin
August 15th, 2017
This is beautiful!
The statement Lexi made in the last frame is very poignant and self-reflective to me and might be why some people see trans people as selfish for wanting to transition. When I think back at all of the people I've affected, the ones who were affected most were the ones whom I was good friends with. They knew him (my pre-transition self) and missed him and never had a chance to say goodbye. I think that's where the whole trust thing comes in. They see this new person before them, not the old person they knew, and no matter what you say (to some of them), they will always feel like you betrayed their trust because you had to hide this from them. They know that what they've confided in you - all their secrets - were said in the context of you being who they thought you were and there are some things/secrets that probably shouldn't have been said, things they might be embarrassed to say to a woman.
I still think Erica is a figment of Annie's imagination, perhaps the voice of reasoning part of her conscience.
This is great! It's almost as if the girl in green is channeling a little Rosie O'Donnell!
I know people who are very much like Erica (even though I still think she is a figment of Annie's imagination). There is a PhD grad student in my department who acts and talks very much like this. It's almost as if he (the grad student) were in an expressionless stupor all the time. He's brilliant at what he does, but his social skills make him seem pretty odd.
I do get it. It's just that with all the bruises... bruises on top of bruises... I'm quite surprised (and relieved) that her face is still nicely-featured!
This is great!
Eeek! I thought it was Andrea at first!

Somehow I think Annie should be able to use her self-defense skills to protect herself from a crazed fan.
A large all-meat pizza? Or even half of one? Girl can eat!
Ack!!!! Just like a couple of my ex's, I think to myself, "Put the shiny, pretty toy back on the shelf. It ain't worth it! Damaged goods!"
The more I think about the yellow girl, the more I think that she doesn't really exist. She's just a figment of Annie's imagination, sort of like a part of her subconscious mind. None of the other characters talk like that. She (the yellow girl) seems like she always has the same expressionless face. I can't believe she's flesh and blood like the rest of the characters.
Many, many of my trans friends couldn't define themselves either and all they talked about all the time was trans-this and trans-that.

"No, let's talk about something real," I'd say, but they'd always look at me meanly and say, "My issues are real," which I understood but to build a relationship with someone based on being transgender isn't usually a lasting one.
This is a damn beautiful episode. I love it!
Hmmm... so I was just discussing this with my partner, who is also trans, and we both agree that Vic was only doing something out of the goodness of his heart. If we were to receive this gift, we'd be very grateful because we know that something like this is very expensive and will help get rid of something that causes a lot of anxiety. At least it's not as bad as something utilitarian, like a vacuum cleaner!

But I get why Annie would be mad. I just think if she thought about it more, she'd see that Vic was trying to help rather than intentional cause her more anxiety.
This is beautiful!
They say that people change every 7 years or so. It's been 7 years since my suicide attempt and transition. I'd say life is pretty darn good!

This webcomic has brought back some painful memories, but also reminds me of the good times, too. I hope more people read this. I would say this is essential reading for trans youths.
Remember I mentioned in a previous episode about that ass**** doctor that told me not to transition? He also said that he felt my suicide attempt was just to attract attention. How do you conclude this in just three sessions at a psych ward?

I am glad that he was the only jerk at the psych ward. The social workers there were all nice. The rest of the staff was nice.
When I was in a psych ward, there was a doctor who basically told me flat out, "Do not transition. People who transition will never be happy." I did not listen to him and am thankful I did not. The only thing I'm unhappy about with my transition is how much my divorce cost me, but that's just money. Every year, I pray that my negative feedback and that of others will force this ass*** doctor into early retirement.