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My name is Jocelyn Samara DiDomenick. I feel like it's a little pointless for me to mention this since I'm on a webcomic site, but I'm an artist and a writer. My comic, "Rain", a dramedy is about a teenage trans girl. I should probably mention that I myself am a trans girl too. As such, the comic is a bit of a personal story to me.

When I'm not drawing/writing, I enjoy gaming (especially RPGs and retro games), anime (my tastes are pretty eclectic) and heavy metal (or more particularly, epic/symphonic metal).
  • Real Name
    Jocelyn Samara D.
  • Age
    33
  • Gender
    Female
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I finished watching Made in Abyss this morning and was like, well, fanart is pretty much inevitable. I just have to. It's what needs to happen. And here we are. XD

I was pretty torn on whether I wanted to draw either Nanachi or Marulk though (as I loved them both dearly). Ultimately, I went with Nanachi, as their design would offer a little bit more of a challenge. (That damn headgear. Even when looking for references within the show, it's notable that the character is very frequently only shown from the bangs down. So it is a little bit improvised on my part.) As for Marulk? Maybe that'll be a drawing for another time. I loved this show enough to be willing to draw more from it. ^_^

(Also, I did not draw the background. It's ripped from the opening to give this some kind of backdrop.)

I don't have much else to say, other than that it feels good to have posted two pieces this week. Neither are the main comic, but when you're working on buffer and writing stuff you can't show yet (leaving nothing TO post), I sorta fear it sometimes looks like I'm not doing anything. So going on a tangent for some fanart once in a while (which I think I said I was going to do a bunch of times back at the start of this hiatus... whoops), at least it gives me something tangible to show once in a while.

So, I hope you like this. Take care for now! ^_^
Fun fact: I'm still alive and working. ^^;

I feel like my whole life operates on webcomic time lately. It has indeed been over two months since the last story page. And while that's a long time, and it's felt like a long time, I find myself unable to wrap my head around the fact that this hiatus is actually still going. Like, it can't possibly have been two months; it's just been a exceptionally long couple days or so. Right?

RIGHT!?

Seriously though, I'm sorry this is still going. I know I've had a couple readers express concern about whether Rain is still going to continue. And the answer is "yes, of course!" It's not over until you see a page that says "The End" on it. That hasn't happened yet, so rest assured Rain will continue. And I want you to know that even I go quiet for a little while, it doesn't mean I've moved on. I'm someone who needs closure, so I couldn't walk away from this if I wanted to.

Especially since Rain is the biggest, proudest project I've ever done, I will always fight for it.

Anyway, the hiatus is still going because there were a number of little things holding me up. I think I at last know what I want to do with it all, so I can finally get this thing moving again soon. My hope is that when Rain resumes again, hiatuses will be far fewer and further between (if happening at all). And while I won't jinx myself with a date at this time (so the option of being early is there), I'm really striving to get this all back in motion by no later than November. And I hope you'll all be there, ready to join me when that time comes.

Thanks for your ongoing patience everyone. You have no idea what it means to me that you're still willing to stick with me through this all. ^_^
@Hpxx:

Yes. I will continue Rain. I can't say for sure exactly when, but rest assured, more is coming. :)
It's been a couple weeks since my last formal check-in update, so I'd like to take a moment to share where I'm at right now. And brace yourself: I've got a lot to say today. ;P

As I said last time, I am in fact back to working on Rain. I just want to work up my page buffer so I don't corner myself into having to slap everything together at the last minute (thus causing the stress that led to this hiatus). I've been doing exactly that (alongside working on my buffer for my second comic as well, as this is a good, convenient time for me to get ahead on that with no pressure). I've been trying to alternate between the two to reduce burnout and I think that's been working pretty well.

The catch is that I'm not always drawing. Upon a recent reread of the last few chapters of Rain (as well as the next few) after a long time away from it, I'm seeing a lot of pacing and tonal issues I'm not entirely happy with. So I'm spending a fair bit of time going over everything to better balance the story. The good news is that I'm getting closer to where I want to be. The bad news is I still don't know when I'm coming back, because I really would like this all to be completely ironed out before doing so. This way I can offer you the most enjoyable reading experience possible, while allowing myself the smoothest writing process going forward.

And while it is a process, I think it'll have been worth the wait when I can get back to regular posting.

~

If I may, I'd like to talk about my other project for a bit too. I've been very tight-lipped about this, but if I'm being honest, I've started planning for it probably close to a year ago now. I admit, I don't totally know why I've been so quiet though. I'm actually really excited for this, and I've been really driven for a while. I think I'm just nervous because it's not something previously announced/seen like Magical or Lavender, so I'm afraid people will hate it on principle for what it's not.

Maybe that doesn't make a lick sense. But irrational fears are no stranger to depression and anxiety. So let me try an push through my worry and finally unveil this thing.

This new comic is called Moonlight Wanderers, and it is a Nuzlocke comic of Pokemon Moon. If you're not familiar with the concept of a Nuzlocke, it is a self-imposed challenge when playing a Pokemon game where any time one of your creatures faints, you are to consider them dead and you can no longer use them. It leads to great emotional attachment and can sometimes be very intense, as every choice you make matters. And a Nuzlocke comic is a fairly common trend where people basically write about how their experience with the challenge went. That is Moonlight Wanderers.

Now, it's not just a retelling of the game's story with minimal input on my end. Rather, in the case of MW, I use the game story and characters as a guideline and go off the rails as I go to really make it my own. But if I want to tell my own story, why not something original, right? Well, I admit that in a lot of ways, this is just something I've always wanted to do. But also, this is going to help me with my original works later.

Rain, as you well know, is not the most artistically complex comic out there. Most pages are just characters standing around talking with little to no action, and backgrounds are non-existent about 98% of the time. For Rain, I believe this works. It doesn't require much to tell it's story, and I personally believe the minimalism is more optimal for its look.

But what about after Rain? Magical will feature battle sequences and monsters. Shangri-La also features combat, a large array of creatures, and a unique setting that is very significant to the story. What works for Rain, might not be ideal for my other works. And to be honest, I don't think I'm really prepared for that. I'm not sure how to approach drawing creatures and battles and backgrounds, and I don't want to present Shangri-La or Magical or any other stories as anything less than the best they can be.

Moonlight Wanderers gives me the opportunity to come out of my comfort zone, and forces me to draw a lot of things I wouldn't normally (thus allowing me to improve in more areas). But it does so with a sense of familiarity. Thanks to the Pokemon, I'll be drawing a wide variety of creatures very regularly. Battles would happen often enough that I'd have to learn a lot of more unique poses. A story focused around a journey means there will be a number of locales to be depicted, so paintbucketing a panel green and saying it's the color of the walls might not always cut it. And if I need help with any of these things, there are plenty of references to utilize. It's not going to be perfect, but it will offer me the practice I need to feel more confident in being able to present my original works that might themselves be more artistically demanding.

Tomorrow, I'm planning on posting the first page of Moonlight Wanderers on my Patreon. This isn't me officially starting to post it, and the comic will not be exclusive to there when it does start. When the first page eventually does go up widespread, it might not even look exactly the same. Rather, I just want to post this to a limited audience for now as a sample of what I'm hoping to work toward. And ideally, I'd like to hear what people think (good or bad). So if you want to be involved in a bit of an advanced screening and help me make sure I'm onto something good here, you can find my Patreon here. As long as you're a patron, you'll get to see it. ^_^

If you don't want to or can't do so, that's totally fine. The comic will probably start up some time before the year is out either way, and now that it's officially unveiled, I have lots to talk about to hopefully hype it up until then.

~

Final thing I wanted to say that has nothing to do with art or writing or comics or anything: As of a couple days ago, I'm five years on hormones. It's such a surreal milestone. I mean, the calendar can't lie, but it's really hard to believe somehow. I just still kinda feel new to all this. Is that normal? Any other longtime transitioners feel like this?

Of course, I am happy though, however hard it may be for me to comprehend.

~

Anyway, the hiatus has been long and still continues, but hopefully, this offers some good news and things to look forward to in the near future. While I can't name an exact return date just yet, we're getting closer and closer everyday. But thank you, as always, for your continued patience. It's meant the world to me through some difficult times recently, and I'm hoping I can reward you for that patience very soon. ^_^

Keep on being awesome, folks! Take care for now!
See accompanying wall of text. ;P
@Guest:

Of all the stories above, only Magical and "MW" are currently planned as webcomics when they start. The former won't start until Rain is done. The latter, I'll hopefully be announcing soon and will go up alongside Rain.

Lavender is prose, but you can read what's currently available here. ^_^
https://jocelynsamara.deviantart.com/gallery/60136/Lavender

And although you didn't ask, I'll fill in the blanks for the rest if anyone's curious. Impure and The Scars of Redemption are also planned as prose, but are not yet started. Meanwhile, Shangri-La and Save the Princess are game ideas (the former of which, has a playable, if somewhat dated, demo).
@Elise:

Lavender was not meant to end there. There's actually a fair bit more I wanted to do with it. Unfortunately, I just kept never getting around to it.

I do plan on getting back to at some point. Hopefully sooner than later, but I can't say for sure exactly when.
@Le Fou:

Funny enough, I just really had no idea what to call it. Every title I came up with, I just hated, but I knew the story would be dark, so I just started calling it "something dark" as kind of in-joke to myself. I did not anticipate it'd take to another 2-3 years for me to come up with actual title though. XD

I feel like The Scars of Redemption is a wee bit campy, but I'm not against a little camp. And really, I kinda needed to call it something before I actually started writing it and legit ended up calling it "something freaking dark". XD
Yesterday I spent a rather absurd amount of time reorganizing my DeviantArt gallery. This might not matter to a lot of you here, but if you were interested to see a lot of my non-Rain work, that'd usually be where to do it. To be honest, it still kinda looks like a mess. But I guess that's to be expected when you've got well over 2,000 submissions (more than half of which, being the comic, or at least related to it). Still, it's nicer now than it was, with updates to the sub-gallery folder covers, and I now have one sub-gallery for Older Stuff, so that pre-Rain art can be found without having to sift through seven years of comic pages. XD
https://jocelynsamara.deviantart.com/gallery/

As an update to my gallery cleanup yesterday, today I changed some gallery covers again to something nicer, and added a few for stories that didn't previously have their own galleries. I've also included a placeholder for my second comic (just a little "MW" for now, as I haven't formally announced it yet). I'll probably start setting up another comic here on SmackJeeves for that too pretty soon. ;P

Again, probably none of that matters to you if you're not following me on DeviantArt, but it did mean some new art. And it feels good to see all the gallery covers lined up like this, so I wanted to share.

It also feels good to flex out and work with stories and characters I haven't been able to focus on in a long time. I'm starting to suspect at least part of my current depression is stemming from burnout with Rain. I mean, doing almost anything for nearly seven years, burnout is probably inevitable.

But please don't take that to mean I'm throwing in the towel. Rain will continue toward a proper ending as was originally planned. Drawing, writing, and generally thinking about other things for at least a little while is helping clear my head a bit though. And when I am ready to finally start the second comic to go up alongside Rain, I think that will help too. While it'll technically be more work, I believe alternating between two very different stories will help prevent either one from growing too stagnant for me.

So again, thank you for bearing with me through all this. I'm hoping to reward everyone's patience with some great content when I can finally get past this thing. ^_^
I drew a thing! Huzzah!

It's been a while since I've drawn much of anything. Probably close to a month at this point. Honestly, you probably know me by now: of course, I want to get back to it. Like nothing else! But depression's kind of a bitch, and it's hard to stay motivated right now. That doesn't mean I'll just stop trying to what I love though. And this isn't even about the comic right now. I just want to draw anything at this point, really.

In this case, I happened to try out the Danganronpa V3 demo the other day, and decided it was as good a subject as any to work with. So here we have protagonist, Kaede Akamatsu, because I figured she'd be the easiest to safely look up a reference for (let's just say I've had problems with getting major spoilers for previous Danganronpa titles when I just wanted to look at a little character art, so this time I was trying to be more careful). Kaede might not have otherwise been my first choice to draw, but she was a fun - if simplistic enough - character design to work with for trying to get back into drawing.

I also got kind of experimental with shading. I don't really have an eye for that kind of thing though, so it might look terrible; I hope it's somewhat decent though. (And the background is just pulled from the game itself to give her a backdrop; I didn't make it.)

Either way, I hope you like this. I'm not ready to get back to routine comic posts, but I'm hoping to at least get back to drawing in general more again. I'm sure doing something I love at a steady, non-stressful pace could do wonders for me. So hopefully, we'll see more drawings and doodles in the future, until I'm ready to return to comicking.

So thank you again for bearing with me during this time. Your support is, as always, very welcome and means the world to me right now. :)
Also, I know I've posted all these links before, but I figure this is as good a time as any to share stuff regarding future or on-hold works of mine. In case, you need something to read to fill the gap (for a little bit).

Shangri-La
https://jocelynsamara.deviantart.com/gallery/11493265/Shangri-La

Lavender
https://jocelynsamara.deviantart.com/gallery/60136/Lavender

Magical
https://jocelynsamara.deviantart.com/gallery/46861739/Magical

Impure
https://jocelynsamara.deviantart.com/gallery/35259243/Impure

Something Dark
https://jocelynsamara.deviantart.com/art/Something-Dark-401159333

Save the Princess
https://jocelynsamara.deviantart.com/art/Princess-Sabrina-612706357

Silhouette
https://jocelynsamara.deviantart.com/art/Silhouette-570209581
@Le fou:

Sorry for the delayed response. I only just saw this now.

I signed Jocelyn C.D. before I had actually legally changed my name. At the time, I was planning on changing it to Jocelyn Charity. Charity as a middle name didn't really bear any significance though, other than that I liked the way it sounded and flowed with the rest of my name. For years, I had it planned that this was what I was going with too.

Fast forward to the day I would send in all the name change forms, I last second decided I wanted Samara to be my middle name instead. This is the name I would've been given had my parents known they had another daughter, so it had a bit more meaning to me.

And that's what happened to the C. That was about four years ago to the day now, which is crazy to think about. ^_^
Sudden Comic Hiatus. Sorry. :(
Hey, Rain Beaus. This is kinda out of the blue - and I'm really sorry to do this - but I think I need to take a bit of a hiatus.

In favor of being completely forward with you, I've been kinda stressed out for a while. Not so much with the comic, but life in general. And while my anxiety isn't stemming from the comic, per se, it's not helping. My struggle to balance everything going on in my personal life has been leading to my very frequently slapping pages together the day they go up. And when I have time to start rebuilding my page buffer, life happens for a week, and it all goes away again. It's frustrating - downright maddening sometimes - and I worry about having my frazzled rush to finish pages becoming apparent, because you deserve better.

And even through this, I was tempted to keep going through to the end of the chapter (which still honestly has a few weeks left). But as of this week I've been experiencing some nasty tendonitis in my drawing wrist, preventing me from drawing, killing my buffer again, and leaving me with nothing for the next page, and no way to even make a new page right now.

To top it all off, I had my first panic attack in over a year last night. It's becoming abundantly clear that maybe I ought to allow myself a break. Pushing myself any more than I already am is not going to help, so I'm going to just take this hiatus while I can.

I am sorry to drop this all on you out of nowhere, and I'm definitely sorry for the short notice hiatus, but I really think I just need to do this right now. I don't want you to worry about me though; I'll be okay. This hiatus is to assure exactly that, after all. This break will not be permanent, and I promise to let you know when I'm ready to come back as soon as I can.

Thank you so much, as always, for your understanding and your patience with me.
Fun fact: This is a true story. Like in Rain's case, it wasn't serious, but my first kiss was with a girl in kindergarten, and I was made fun of for it until the seventh or eighth grade. I was super-closeted as a kid, so my gender identity played can't have played a part. I guess besides being quiet, kissing a girl was all they had on me. Elementary/Middle school is a weird time. XD

Once I got to high school, the teasing stopped. This is a little off-topic, but in my case, I didn't really get bullied or teased or... well, acknowledged really. I guess not having bullies was a plus, but I had very few friends too. I was pretty invisible. I have a hard time calling that an improvement. This is where Rain's story and mine differ, as she continued to get picked on (although the insults grew up).

There're a couple Chapter A references on this page. In the first panel, there're two random little girls off to the side, watching Rain and Allison's kiss. They're actually based on the same girls who make fun of Rain on one particular page. They're not terribly important, but it fit for them to be there. I probably had names for them way back when I wrote that chapter, but I don't remember what they were and it doesn't really matter. Make up your own names, if you like. ;P

In the last panel, Rain also touches her cheek while mentioning a "bad result from coming out". Allison slapped her when she came out back then, thinking Rain was making fun of her, but she has since apologized.

Anyway, that's enough yammering out of me. I hope you like the page, and feel free to share your thoughts on anything, as always. ^_^


©2004-2017
Rain, all characters and all other aspects of the story are copyright material belonging to me.

We finally started a Patreon.
Don't forget you can buy Rain: Vol. 1 through 4 here!
You can also follow Rain on Facebook!
@Person:

Your opinion is very welcome, and in hindsight, perhaps what you say would make more sense given the plot point. That said, Rain would probably want to avoid actual typos or mispronouncing it as her deadname as much as she can. Using typo as an excuse is still believable, I think (given some of the insane ways I've seen my own name butchered). The names are still pretty close after all. But changing one letter adds that extra degree of separation from actual slip-ups. ^_^

In the end, it's really just what I decided to go with though. I admit I did consider other spellings, like "Raine" or even "Raini", but I just liked the way simple "Rain" looked best. Incidentally, I'd never considered spelling it with a "Y"... though I had considered spelling Ryan with an "I" (ie, Rian). And in that case, again, I think I just decided to keep it to the simpler, more common spelling. I wanted the names to be similar, but I didn't make it confusing.

I hope that clears things up. ^_^
@Guest:

I mean, that's just kind of the nature of telling a story like this, I think. Every page is basically a cliffhanger until one that says "the end" on it. XD

That said, I actually hurt my wrist and can't draw at the moment, so this page (originally written to be a two-pager with the next update) just got split up to buy me a little extra time to recover. I'm genuinely sorry for the inconvenience. ^^;
Half-cute page. Half-drama page. One maybe surprising fact about Rain's past. Details next time. ^_^


©2004-2017
Rain, all characters and all other aspects of the story are copyright material belonging to me.

We finally started a Patreon.
Don't forget you can buy Rain: Vol. 1 through 4 here!
You can also follow Rain on Facebook!
Twenty pages into this chapter, it seems we might finally be ready to bring in the main character and the face of the chapter cover for a full scene. XD Rain and Emily return home from... wherever they were (yes, we'll get to that), and do a quick check in on Ky before a little chatting while they start to unwind.

This is mostly a transitional page to lead into the rest of the scene, so I admit there's not much to say at the moment. Lots of couples talk this chapter though. Some fluffy and positive. Some heartbreaking. I wonder how things will fare here.


©2004-2017
Rain, all characters and all other aspects of the story are copyright material belonging to me.

We finally started a Patreon.
Don't forget you can buy Rain: Vol. 1 through 4 here!
You can also follow Rain on Facebook!
@everyone

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As I said in the page blurb above, there is no new update going up tomorrow (back on Monday, I promise). That said, new images highlighting and discussing my upcoming second comic tend to go up on my Patreon every Thursday. Since today's image had already been prepared, I could still post today without bogging myself down. For just $3, this is the only way to see many of these drawings for the time being. So if the one day hiatus is getting you down, and you just need some new art or ramblings from me, you can always check it out here: https://www.patreon.com/RainComic
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Gratuitously cute page. I do always feel weird about including these. I mean, I like them ('cause I'm a hopeless romantic), but I'm always worried about them not really adding much to the story. And yet, I've been told they tend to be a lot of people's favorites. So just this once, I'm not going to question it. Besides, there's been enough people predicting impending doom throughout this scene, so having it close on an extra mushy note feels weirdly appropriate. XD

Next time, we'll be focusing on someone else. But, as much as I'm loathe to do this, next time will be Monday. There will be no page this Friday. I'd rather not get into specifics, but things have been rather hectic for me lately and I need to play a bit of catch up. So I am sorry to do this, but I hope you'll forgive me, and rejoin me for a new page on Monday.


©2004-2017
Rain, all characters and all other aspects of the story are copyright material belonging to me.

We finally started a Patreon.
Don't forget you can buy Rain: Vol. 1 through 4 here!
You can also follow Rain on Facebook!